Adaptation process

Adaptation process need much more time..sometimes it based to the others influence..not only the environment itself but the people around us..Especially when we are used with "ukhwah" environment..it's not as simply what others say and not really hard..it is all depend on how the people accept it..their perception..their expectation..it is all about what are we thinking it is..so it might be right or wrong..however we always think to something that is acceptable one rather than to hurt someone even it is not our true intention..I realized that everybody had faced this kind of problem..maybe some of us just go through and see what happen and maybe some others did not care and just leave..the choice is in our hand..but sometimes we will think is it the right decision???...then we will confused again...between to satisfy ourself or others...same goes to me and it is not simply as it is..so, rather than to spill it out which might somebody..better just keep it in even it hurt myself..I always hope that nobody will ask me "are u ok to be here???"....until someone ask me and I don't know what the right answer to give her..should i be frank or just tell the lie to satisfy people..and I admit all the feelings that I have now is all regarding to the adaptation process..even I had already prepared to control all those things but sometimes it slipped away..at that time I'm feel lost..rather to depend to others..I need to survive..with all the different environment..from my study life..classmate..my personal life..there all changes..it is not easy to adapt so quickly but I need to tell myself I'll be ok and must be ok..sometimes it is hard but how matter it is, I need to accept it..this is one of the adaptation process..I don't want to compare it with my previous life whether it is good or become worst..so, for this being time I don't know how to comment about my new life..let's the time tell..sooner everything will be ok..but from now I hope I'll not give any real commitment and be attach to this place....